On Hedonism: Fetish

I have two main fetishes, one is underwear (which explains why my drawers are so full of it), and the second is BDSM and in particular bondage. If you're wondering what BDSM stands for, here it is:

Bondage & discipline (B&D)
Domination & submission (D&S)
Sadism and masochism (or sadomasochism) (S&M)

I'm not much into S&M although a bit of if as part of a wider scene would be fine. It's bondage and submission that really turn me on.

Personally I prefer "bottoming" although I'm flexible. Don't think I'm some sort of hardcore player, I've only had some vanilla experiences with my ex-partner but I've always been interested in experiencing more of it (which is reflected in my collection of pictures/films).

There is something extremely arousing in completely submitting to someone else for sexual pleasure, especially if you're completely bound/restraint and can't really do anything about it.

There are plenty of people out there that like a bit of it to spice things up, some flurry handcuffs, a bit of role-play... but that's all very vanilla. What happens when you cross that line and really give yourself up? What when you give up your own sexual pleasure (which your master my still provide) but you make your own depend on someone else's, becoming an instrument for someone else's enjoyment and completely giving up yours.

I don't really know what attracts me to all of this and how far I would go during a proper session, but I'm certain of one thing , I wouldn't mind testing my boundaries!